Dear Amanda Todd,
I saw the video you posted
about bullying, and mistakes
you made, and pain you were in.
You were only 15, holding up
hand-written signs instead of speaking,
silenced already. You were reaching out
for anyone to help you, the raw hurt
so alive it crawled off the screen
and into me, leaving me with a heaviness
that didn’t lessen. I decided to write you,
to tell you that 15 doesn’t last, that there
is another life ahead where you can be
anybody you want, if you just hang on.
Talk to me, Amanda Todd, but don’t give up.
I can help you. I went back to the computer
to find your email – looked you up – and saw
“Amanda Todd commits suicide after being
tormented” and my breath is knocked away,
because I didn’t get to you. Nobody did.
And I am so sorry. We all let you down.
Frozen there, I see I have a message.
It’s from my own 14-year-old daughter, and it
says, “I don’t want to be alive anymore.”
Panic grips me. How do you save 14?
Maybe you would know, Amanda Todd,
maybe you could tell me.
But you are gone.