a shade of green
for every promise
that summer makes
a shade of green
for every promise
that summer makes
Wouldn’t bet it all on Friday
as Friday came and went
just another square on the calendar
just another face in the crowd
just another coin in the fountain
just another, just another
It goes on and on, the waves roll in
but the tide never really changes
just more broken shells left to find
walked this beach a thousand times
bet it all on Friday again
but nothing changed, what remains
inside these walls of sky again
Inside these walls, fix them up,
build them up again, patch the holes
we’re leaking out everywhere,
seeping through the cracks, every piece of
us, of Us, running down the walls
flowing through the gutters, spilling
away from this place. Here I hung
curtains of hope and invited the sun in,
but the sun has gone and the glass is
broken and so are we, so are we, and all
that was here is cracked from your words
turned inside out, this house we were,
and all our ghosts and angry walls
can’t contain broken glass and bullet holes.
We take it with us and move on.
a thousand miles
down the shore, I walked
before the gulls weary wings
and mine, we rested
by walking the sea’s remember
you once walked here, too
before broken shells
and words, winter’s bite
echoes of tidal times
moon phases, things
you can count on
you
disappeared
one set of footprints in sand
even the waves know
erase it all
quickly, so we don’t
look back, so stark
these clouds who used
to gather down, they look
away now, just me
a one way trip
I’ll go quietly
Little Bird Sea Shore
little bird
ocean shore
walking the edge
waves, skitter skitter
stop, beak the sand
in and out along
the tidal know
you stay you go
little bird I watch
you see
skitter skitter away
from me back and forth
sun to moon you
wait rolling waves
advance retreat
finally you fly
I
fly
with
you
when the sun was still early in the sky
and the waves broke easy near the shore
I waded past knee high white caps into the Atlantic
early summer smiled and so did I
floating through what the sea rolled my way
hours like minutes, until the clock faced sky
began to fill with cloudy hands
the water churned mixing salt and sand
the roll pulled me down the shore, but still I rode
swam harder to keep time with the sea
the sun sank lower, watching me
clouds spread darker, angering the sea
I grew smaller and more tired, floating out the waves
still I stayed in that day
where else would I be?
the tide began to rip and pull at me
drew me out further, where the surf broke high and loud
I dove beneath, let it swirl above
but it all came faster and faster
trying to keep up with the sea
my breath was short and salty
what I had left was low as the falling sun
watching as a breaker swept over me
tossed beneath its turbulent green
I washed up on shore, a piece of driftwood
next wave hit me square, spun me under
pulled me back, so I stayed at the edge and didn’t leave
sun still watching, still waiting, still listening
I was salt and sand and part of the sea
wave after wave weathering me
what once floated on lost
grew roots from the sky, and they
wrapped around clouds, painting them
luminous and full of harmony,
and the roots of found rained down
in gentle hold, showed the trees
how to stay the seasons, how to last
they spread and deepened, wove
through time, centuries of roots,
paths that crossed and crossed again
until it became one path that grew
and led us home
reaching, but
mornings she knew
only white
The sailboat waited for the wind,
for the tide to rise, and the clouds
waited for the sun, while the trees waited
for rain. The river waited for the moon
to tell its tidal tales, and the fish waited
for the river to flow their days. And it was
quiet, and still, and I was waiting, too.
I was counting tides on the sailboat,
waiting for you.
I’m sorry sending the angels was all I could do
as I knelt in the glass and mud.
Spring won’t come this year.
I didn’t see you until you almost
hit the back corner of my car, almost
took me with you, rolling, scraping, across concrete,
flipping, air dirt air dirt, glass, metal, tree –
almost –
I already knew before my car came to rest on the edge.
Smoke began to rise from your truck, and it was all
so close
so close you were to me, to the tree, to right side up and upside down,
to where you were going,
so close. I asked them to be with you,
the angels,
when the other voices yelled, “Step back!”
And today what’s left of your almost –
a tire with a white cross and flowers,
but still,
an angel,
so close.
you’re on a plane but you are not coming home,
waiting in line, third for take-off, a life through
oval windows, and you’re off again, gaining air
losing ground, time spend moving around,
departures and arrivals, runways and wind direction,
climbing and descending, landing gear,
it’s just another day, another day I drink tea alone,
another day the sky claims home
Use all your tools
To crush her, to grind
her unrecognizable.
Show her what happens
when someone leaves
you, leaves YOU.
She’ll be sorry when
there’s nothing left
of her but
pieces
of
broken
Watch her crumble,
stomp on her, kick
what’s left, and then
call her a breakdown,
a total loss, a waste,
watch her fall
trying to save
the children,
holding them
up, keeping
their heads
just above
your angry
tide, while
you, you
laugh at
her struggle,
watch the waves
swallow them,
and whisper in your
tiny, monstrous voice,
“I win.”
childhood days
upside down
reflections
You make a joke
You throw a joke
I am the joke
Can’t I take a joke
They laugh, they look
You smile, I within
I am the joke
What’s wrong, but
They know, I just
Can’t take a joke
I am the joke
It is me
And they laugh
At your jokes
They laugh at me
You grow like
A giant fed by
Their laughter, and
I shrink – tiny, tiny
Me, and that makes
An even better joke
So you say that, too
The laughs swallow
Me up, tiny me
disappears
Like
a
joke
Inside
The words she hides
Underneath
Muffled gray skies
Between
Boarded up eyes
Within
Worn down outsides
Somewhere
She cries
Inside
the water held green, and it loved
pink so deeply that the sun rose each day
just to watch how green surrounded her true,
protected every petal and blush, and she
cherished him and stretched her bloom,
and the water was their canvas, so nothing
would change, and the reflection made
all that grew timeless, and we knew
this face
abandoned
still looking
three circled
almost there, as if
empty knew
She used to face the wind, steady
strength worn in straight lines and
sound steps. But harsh nights
and bitter words weathered her
core, washed away resolve,
beat down seasoned worth,
pieces fall away, she lets
them go, it’s all broken
anyway, layers of fall
lean and snap of
her, cruel words
grab, she’s only
a fragment of
what she was,
the rest of
her is
gone
she’s always
with me
the little girl
that no one sees
she was never
enough, still
trying to
catch up
I look away,
but I know
she’s there,
whispering
my alone
reminding me
following
me
home
floating flakes~bring your white